I didn’t know whether to go over to him or to stay where I was looking over at him and hoping for a positive reaction. He looked back at me, now with his hands on his waist and shook his head. He was so breathtaking in that Sunlight! His skin complimented his jet black hair and his eyes, I really couldn’t get enough of their sparkle.

”We shouldn’t have just done that Mezghan, we shouldn’t have done that.” he said turning away from me again. I was confused and didn’t understand what the problem was. I sat crossing my legs and hugged myself with my arms.

”Why?” I asked, ”Did I not do it right?”

He shook his head again and let out something in between a laugh and a sigh.

”You don’t get it do you?!”

No, to be honest I didn’t, I didn’t get the problem! There had been this crazy yet undenaible sexual tension between us from the moment we met, or even before, just when we’d stare at one another. I got this feeling whenever I was near him and I knew that he felt it too. Did he not? Was I mistaken? Was he hiding his true feelings from me so he could fufill his mission, his ”purpose”?

I leaned in towards him and with a little bit more force and speed, I met his perfect pink lips once again. I loved that feeling I got after every little touch and that light smacking sound we made as our mouths parted ways for those few seconds in between. After about a minute of that slow, gentle rythm, I felt his tongue gently hit my lips. It tickled and I could feel the warmth of his breath fill my mouth. Without thinking, I did the same. Our tongues began to touch and slowly started dancing together in perfect sync to our own personal melody. That hot, wet feeling was so intense that I swear I thought I was flying! Our kisses got harder,faster and more powerful and our tongues followed each other deeper and deeper. I could feel every little bump and imperfection, I could feel his lips teasing mine and I didn’t want him to stop. I began to lean towards him more and more until his head was back on the hood of the car. My hand was now pressing against his chest slightly and I could feel his heart go for gold! It was racing! His hand tried to find my face buried behind all of my long wavy hair, I could feel his warm hands tickle my face. Having my eyes closed heightened everything, his touch, the heat, our mouths meeting, it just felt so perfect. Everything was spinning but in a good way and I truly felt as if it was just me and him, everything and everywhere began to disappear and I was sure that my heart was about to flutter off like a Butterfly.

As I began to lie on top of him, still with my eyes sealed and my hand pressing down on him, I felt him push me away! All of a sudden, the world returned and I opened my eyes. I felt like I had just been on a Rollercoaster for the first time, I didn’t know what to expect next. My heart was still racing and I couldn’t feel my body, it was still pleasently numb. Ethan got up off the car and walked away a few steps covering his face. He seemed angry, confused, mad at himself. Was it me? Was the kiss wrong, bad, a mistake?

Something was happening, I could feel my body starting to tingle and my heart beat that little bit faster. He was still leaning back on the bonnet of the car looking so peaceful and so perfect. His golden skin was glowing in the sunlight and I could hear him breathe. His eyes opened and he tilted and turned his head, covering his eyes while he did so to protect them from the rays. He looked at me and smiled slightly, taking his hands away from his forehead showing me those stunning peepers. I went into a trance everytime I saw them, they were just too beautiful! The way the Sun converted them from that darkish blue to a shiny silver just killed me. He looked as if he was about to say something, but before he did, I silenced him with a careful and gentle kiss. I had never done this before! I had never been tempted nor had the chance. I will never forget the way it felt, that first peck. I could feel my lips carefully press against his and it seemed as though my lips were made for his because just like a jigsaw puzzle, every crack, curve and crevace on mine met perfectly with his. It felt warm and nice, not as wet as I had expected. My body went numb and my face began to tingle. I felt a strange lightheaded feeling coming over me so I removed my lips from his, opened my eyes and still leaning over slightly, stared back into his beautiful blue eyes. He looked back at me with a confused look on his face but never took his eyes off of mine. I wanted to kiss him again, I got that urge to place my lips on his once more but that look he had been giving me made me stop. I gave him a little smile without losing eye contact and waited for him to do or say something or even just move slightly, anything! Then finally, as I began to pull away and regain a normal heartbeat, his eyes slowly and seductively moved down to my mouth. I took this as a sign that he wanted another one, so I didn’t hesitate a second longer.

Echo de menos como el sol convertia tus ojos de azul a plata cuando nos sentamos en la arena tu y yo, tu sin darte cuenta de tu hermosura.

I miss the way the Sun changed your eyes from blue to silver as we sat on the sand you and I, you unaware of just how beautiful you were.

Con tu anillo y tu colgante alrededor de mi cuello, dando a mi pecho con cada paso, el frio de la plata me mata, tu calor ha desaparecido.

With your ring and your chain around my neck, hitting off of my chest with each step I take, the cold silver kills me, your warmth has disappeared.

Mi corazon empieza a bailar, seguiendo el ritmo de tu voz, tus palabras me penetran el oido y vibran a traves de mis venas.

My heart starts dancing, following the rythm of your voice, your words penetrate me and vibrate all through my veins.

I jolted! I was panting and sweating! My pyjamas were wet and my bed sheets were soaked. I caught my breath and looked at the clock. It was nearly four a.m and still very dark outside. I sipped the cold disgusting coffee on my bedside table just to feel something go down my throat and help me breathe with ease again. I sat on the side of my bed and began laughing to myself. Mezghan, come on! You will be eighteen soon and you are still having nightmares?! Please! I was spooked that day in the woods but I hadn’t really thought about is since. And that boy in my dream, I’m sure it was that guy from School, the one that I had seen a couple of times, I was sure of it! The same mannersims, same hoodie, and still couldn’t see his face! Why did I dream of him?, I didn’t even know him! I got up and opened my window to let in some air. The breeze was cool and began to calm my warm skin. I sat on the cushion and stretched out my legs. I loved my windowseat, it was my favourite place in the world when I needed a moment. Everything looked so beautiful from there, even when the Moon was shining and you could barely see outside, it was calm. I leaned my head against the purple curtain and the cold material began cooling my neck which was still hot and sticky from the sweat on my hair. I looked out at the sky. The Moon had never looked so beautiful, she was big, bright and full for the first time in a long time. The stars were minimal in quantity but not needed because of the Moon’s exquisite presence. The trees were dancing to the beat of the breeze and apart from the leaves on the trees swaying to the breeze’s rumba and the ones on the ground brushing the tarmac with there crisp edges, there was no sound, everything was quiet and so peaceful.

I got up to go to the Kitchen for some water and there it was, that growl! The one I had just heard in my dream. I was really frightened now because I was wide awake, I had to be! I put my palms against the window ad looked down. My heart began to beat faster and my eyes were obviously playing tricks on me because there, down by the bark of the big Oak Tree I saw them, those blood red dots.

I sat there reading through my copy of The Republic and highlighting a few phrases that stood out and interested me. I took a sip of coffee and realized the time. It was nearly eleven p.m and I was starting to feel a little tired, so I closed my book got under the covers and turned out my light. I was staring at the ceiling, looking at the stickers I had up there, mostly of my favourite bands. My favourite was a black and silver one of Jason Wade, he was my god! I closed my eyes and focused on nothing so that I could dream something pure and simple.

I was sitting in a room full of people. They were dancing in pairs and looked happy and glad to be there. I was sitting all alone and didn’t recognize anyone. I was far from glad and got up to leave when this boy in a dark hoodie appeared in the middle of the dancefloor. I couldn’t see his face, but he looked so familiar. His gestures, his mannerisms, the way his hands never left his pockets. I was focused on him for a few minutes and then he looked at me. He started to come towards me. I was a little scared and noone else had seemed to notice this strange boy who obviously didn’t belong there. He slowly and cockily walked over to me and leaned down towards my right ear. I could smell his cologne, it was very manly and had an allure about it. I was still trying to work out who he was but couldn’t see his face, it was as if it had been blacked out by something. He leaned closer and began to whisper. ”Come! Come with me before it’s too late! They’re coming for you!” Before I could react he turned and walked away. He reached the door and opened it and as he did, he turned to me as if repeating his words with a stare.

I wanted to go with him, I wanted to follow. But where was he going? Where would he take me? And who was coming for me?! I began to follow his path. Still noone looked up nor stopped to acknowledge my lonely, mobile presence. I reached the door and exited. I was in the hallway of the first floor. Where had he gone? Had he gone upstairs? It was dark and the Moon was my only guide. Something was telling me to go outside, so I followed my instinct. It was freezing cold, I had never felt this kind of cold before. I was shivering like crazy and I remembered that my jacket was inside the Gymnasium. I could make shapes with my breath and my nose and fingers were numb. I began rubbing my sides, all I had on was this silly little white dress which was long and fitted. Beautiful but not for a cold night like this. My arms began to go numb and I was getting goosebumps everywhere. Suddenly it began to snow and I was still trying to find this strange yet intriguing boy. I walked carefully, strying not to slip on the concrete ground beneath me but still focused in front of me. I couldn’t see him, all I could see was the Tennis courts and Football field in the near distance and the Moon illuminating the black starless sky. I began to go back because the cold was killing me when I heard a low yet powerful growl.

I looked back. There didn’t seem to be anything there. I must be have been going into shock or something with the cold affecting me because I was obviously hearing things! But just then, as I began to tur around again, I looked over onto the Football field and saw something very familiar. Two red dots! The very same two red dots I had seen that day in the woods walking to School. I was trying to make out something more, a shape, a colour, anything! I was getting spooked and thought about running back to the Gym when the dots began to move! They ere still the same size and horizontically in the same position but they had moved up atleast a foot! I couldn’t take my eyes off of them, they were hauntingly scary! It was a very dark yet glistening red, a red that looked as if it were bleeding. Then I heard that growl again, a little louder than before and more forceful! What the hell was that thing! I ran for the door quickly forgetting that the ground was icy and slippy. I skidded and hit my head of the glass at the bottom of the door and slided onto the step bruising my side. I was still concious but my head hurt. I could see the Moon and her shine was hurting my eyes. I touched my forehead and it felt wet and sticky. I could feel blood gushing from my wound and I was starting to get dizzy. I got up slowly and began to stagger over to the door. I heard something move in front of me and there it was only a few feet away those two blood red dots. I was scared and helpless. It began to move and before I knew it, it leaped up and came at me! I screamed and then in something quickly appeared in front of me. It was him. The boy in the black hoodie. I began falling to the ground, dizzy and could feel my eyes closing. I saw a phrase in white writing on the hoodie. As I tried to make it out I hit my head hard, everything went black and then, I woke up!

…Tu olor me captiva, tu mirada me encarcela y tus brazos me secuestran pero no tengo miedo, nunca he sentido tan fuerte, tan segura, tan libre…

…Your scent captivates me, your stare imprisons me and your arms abduct me but I am not afraid, I have never felt so strong, so sure, so free…

Auras inanis spiro nunc te perit

…Quiero sentir el calor de tus besos llenar mi boca y provocar mi lengua una vez mas…

…I want to feel how the heat from your kisses fills my mouth and teases my tongue just once more…

Abrazame fuerte, provoca mi cuerpo y llevame contigo a tu peligroso paraiso mi amor…

…Hold me tight, provoke my body and take me with you to your deadly paradise my love…

…Me mostraste el infierno, se que existe, pero el cielo? No tengo prueba absoluta…

…You showed me Hell, I know it exists, but Heaven? I’m just not so sure…

…Tu fuiste mi rayo de sol, mi alma gemela, mis alas infinitas, mi felicidad, mi amor sin condiciones, mi guerrero, mi angel rebelde…

…You were my ray of sunshine, my soulmate, my infinite wings, my happiness, my unconditional love, my warrior, my rebelious angel…

…Fuiste la unica prueba que tenia que me mostraba la existencia del cielo, fuiste mi pedazo de Caelum, por que me dejaste? Por que?…

…You were my only proof that I had that showed me that ”Heaven” existed, you were my piece of Caelum, why did you leave me? Why?

…A lo mejor me tengo que dar cuenta ya de que no vas a volver, porque ya formas parte del Caelum, los del Infernum te quitaron de mis brazos…

…Maybe I have to start realizing that you aren’t coming back, because you now form part of the Caelum, the beasts from the Infernum took you from my arms…

…Y yo me quedo aqui tan sola en el Terrum esperando la llegada de las estrellas para que pueda ver tu cara y besarte hasta que sonrie el sol…

…And I shall be here all alone on the Terrum waiting for the stars to shine so that I can see your face and kiss you until the sun smiles again…

Daria lo que fuese para poder abrazarte una vez mas y perderme en tus ojos

I’d give anything just to hold you once more and lose myself in your eyes